“I want nothing more than to move on”
Subject line: You and I
I find myself… lost and confused.. Shattered pieces of my heart never quite put back together in the same way.
I think about you often, I see you.. Dreaming about you its a haunting remembrance of what we once had.. and yet just to see your face again even if just a dream gives me so much..
I want nothing more than to hold you in my arms again. To kiss you sweetly and shower you in the love I felt for you. The way it felt when I sang my songs for you as my arms wrapped tightly around you. Or how you laid on my back as we slept. Snuggling close to me
I think of Gravity and wish that it would bring you back to me..
You and I and how we both loved and how we dreamed such wondrous dreams together
Your in my head now more so than you have been, because its nearing the time I lost you… Maybe I am just slowly coming to the realization that what we had was the real thing.. The eternal and unending… What we had was something more than I have ever seen.. experienced… felt… or believed possible.
I am not sure I want you out of my heart.. I am not sure I can handle letting go of you permanently
I know your choice. I know your reasons. I want nothing more than to move on.. Nothing more than to see you happy.. Smiling, knowing that even though we arent together you still treasure in your heart all the things that we had, that we shared.. You made me feel alive. More so than ever before, and I dont think I showed you well enough…
I want to know that you are happy. I need to know you are okay.
My broken heart be damned.. Just to see your smiling face one more time.. To hold you and even to talk as friends would cure all the ache in my heart. Would clear all the tears from my eyes.. Even though it would only be a temporary fix…
I know this is a rant and ramble..
Life is full of meetings and partings. Some leaving more of an impact upon us than we could ever realize..
If what we had wasn’t meant to be then I will search for it once again
