Sep 14, 2010
Posted on Sep 14, 2010 in Cliche, Regret | 0 comments
Subject line: Frustrated
I have come to love you in many ways and also know that you will never have me. It’s been five years that we’ve worked together and every day I see the ebb and flow of your emotions. I want to bundle you up in my arms and caress you into a warm sleep next to me. There are times I cannot think of anything but you.
You think this is only about lust, but you have no idea how you’ve possessed me. There is so much about you that is beautiful and you still date losers who will never appreciate the finer points of your personality.
I dream of waking up next to you and whispering “good morning.”
Sep 13, 2010
Posted on Sep 13, 2010 in Cliche | 0 comments
Subject line: Just talk
Upon pondering whether or not I miss you, I’ve came to the conclusion that I’d be pretty stupid to think I didn’t. I know it’s too late and there is nothing we can do to change this, but I want you so bad. I just want to hold you close, smell you, feel your soft skin and play with your hair. I could lay next to you and talk all day. I miss you so much I feel like I can’t go on until I finally get where I pictured us. Even if that meant just one day. One day where we had no worries, no disturbances, just you and I.. inseperable just that day. I know you are with her, and it really bothers me because if I wasn’t such a f up, maybe I could be the one sharing those wonderful experiences with you. When you sit back and think of the past five months and everything that was said… Hoped for.. all just gone. Daily routines at a stand still. What once was, is no more. Such a disappointment. Words are so easy to say but when you sit and think about everything.. visions, dreams, such love.. so sad to watch it all wash away. I know I will talk to you soon and I will feel better for a minute, but I need to prepare for the worst because losing you is like the final chapter in the love story without an ending. I will think about you while I watch the rain. I just hope she makes you happy… I wish you both the best. Love you until the end of time, baby.
Sep 13, 2010
Posted on Sep 13, 2010 in Long Love Letters | 0 comments
Subject line: Not Understanding You ???
I never understood WHY you told the Lies In the first Place ?
And then I don’t Understand WHY you didn’t just come clean so we could go on ???
WHY do you ACT like you miss me and after a short time send a way to contact you ???
Then once I do, You get mean as hell and then go away again ???
We both Know it has nothing to do with Friendship. We both Know we could never have that type of relationship.
Listen I don’t expect perfection ~~ I’m Far from perfect !!!
We ALL have things in our head and Mind. Some about ourselves and some about others…
You mentioned The things We Experienced Together …. That means you DO really miss me… You have mentioned
MANY things that I have thought about. You ONLY think about THOSE things if your missing Someone !!!
I really do Believe you MISS ME but it HAS TO BE PRIDE !!!
You let go of someone that you Want and Need….. That’s going to be a painful life experience !
We ALL get angry and say things WE MAY or MAY NOT mean.
We are equipped with a thing, built in from the factory called forgiveness !
You know ALL those months of breaking up and staying apart…. Well The feeling I was getting from you was
If I came to you, You would shoot me down ~ I had to of been right because I have now came to you many times !
VERY FEW times have you came to me ! At least that’s how I see it !!!!
You Have to let me be me and I YOU !
If You want to talk to me.. YOU KNOW HOW !
Also…..
I want you to know that I am willing to forgive and FORGET and NOT bring it up Again !
BUT in return…….. I NEED you to start talking to me and let me know what you WANT and EXPECT and
I also want to know YOU !!! You need to open up to me and tell me those dark secrets so I understand better,
And trust me with your Heart !!!
If Not….. Well Baby.. I will Miss you and we will keep what we have !!!
All the Arguement s we had… Was because I didnt understand. YOU have to talk to me, So I know what and how your thinking !
I Do Love You With All My Heart !!!
I need your Love AND TRUST !!!
We BOTH have found that ones we date…. Theres NOTHING THERE….
Thats because THEY …arent YOU AND I !!!
We will Never Find Someone that fits together like we do !!!
PS. I would pretty much have to keep a little distance from the kids….
I understand a lot better now about Why that Family Thing I wanted Didn’t happen !
I don’t know if you Know this or thought about it .. But The things you told me I didn’t
understand because you never explained WHY.
That’s WHY Everything took me time to understand !
I Dont look at it as being Weak… But Honestly Loving Someone !
Times Like This Is What Proves Your Love.. !!!
ANYONE can say they Love You …
MEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE…. lol
