Jun 20, 2011
Posted on Jun 20, 2011 in Long Love Letters, Sappy | 0 comments
Life is so devastating sometimes. Mine is currently pulling me away from you. Not that it matters because you do NOT understand how amazing we may be together, but I certainly do. Here is a small list of things that set us apart from the other people on this planet and why I want you to be in my life so badly…
-We both love trees and the environment (in fact you worked in the field once before)
-We dig naturalistic lifestyle (you have a cold again and all i want to do is make you some breathe right tea w honey and snuggle you to death!)
-We are both insanely positive and energetic (most of the time. today was kind of an exception.)
-We love animals
-Educated
-Self Empowered
-Respectful
-And most importantly, we share the same theology regarding religion etc..
The makings for something solid are undeniable from my end whether as friends or something more…
I am finishing your class soon and am not happy about it. Not because I feel the need to learn more about architecture but, because I will not get to see you anymore. Honestly, I think about you constantly and seeing you literally makes me weak in the knees.
The impression I get is you’re unavailable because I am your student and look slightly “edgy”, but ya never know. You have a wild side I can tell but I promise you I am a gentlemen. I know I could show you how beautiful life can be and honestly, I respect you TOO much to ever want to hurt you. We have only been able to chat a few times and that was enough for me to see how many similar interests we have.
PLUS, you’re a Gemini. Both my best friend and lost love of my life are Gemini’s, something surprising because astrology suggests we wouldn’t get along. I wish so badly that I can get through to you and perhaps we can start seeing each other outside those walls you work in, but I’m afraid you would think I’m not YOUR type, when in actuality I am EXACTLY your type. (minus my style I presume.)
I think you’re the most amazing and strong woman I have ever met and that’s what my life craves. A woman to possibly grow old with. A woman I believe is sexier for her charisma and attitude versus looks alone. BUT YOU HAVE IT ALL ! YOU HAVE IT ALL!
And now, because of a supreme lack of jobs here I have to leave this city and head back east. Sure its only an hour, but that is too far knowing you’re here and that I’m probably not going to have a chance to ask you out. So today, I am sad. Its not as if I’m obsessed with you or something. I’ve been single for nearly four years and you ARE the first woman who has been able to completely captivate me. I could spend a lifetime wanting to know more about you and am sad because I fear I won’t ever have the opportunity. Boo!
Jun 15, 2011
Posted on Jun 15, 2011 in Sappy | 0 comments
Subject line: You and I
I find myself… lost and confused.. Shattered pieces of my heart never quite put back together in the same way.
I think about you often, I see you.. Dreaming about you its a haunting remembrance of what we once had.. and yet just to see your face again even if just a dream gives me so much..
I want nothing more than to hold you in my arms again. To kiss you sweetly and shower you in the love I felt for you. The way it felt when I sang my songs for you as my arms wrapped tightly around you. Or how you laid on my back as we slept. Snuggling close to me
I think of Gravity and wish that it would bring you back to me..
You and I and how we both loved and how we dreamed such wondrous dreams together
Your in my head now more so than you have been, because its nearing the time I lost you… Maybe I am just slowly coming to the realization that what we had was the real thing.. The eternal and unending… What we had was something more than I have ever seen.. experienced… felt… or believed possible.
I am not sure I want you out of my heart.. I am not sure I can handle letting go of you permanently
I know your choice. I know your reasons. I want nothing more than to move on.. Nothing more than to see you happy.. Smiling, knowing that even though we arent together you still treasure in your heart all the things that we had, that we shared.. You made me feel alive. More so than ever before, and I dont think I showed you well enough…
I want to know that you are happy. I need to know you are okay.
My broken heart be damned.. Just to see your smiling face one more time.. To hold you and even to talk as friends would cure all the ache in my heart. Would clear all the tears from my eyes.. Even though it would only be a temporary fix…
I know this is a rant and ramble..
Life is full of meetings and partings. Some leaving more of an impact upon us than we could ever realize..
If what we had wasn’t meant to be then I will search for it once again
Jun 14, 2011
Posted on Jun 14, 2011 in Angry Love Letter | 0 comments
Subject line: wow
All i can say is wow. Your words mean nothing. Never Will. I can see through your actions and what others see you doing that you are just lying to yourself. I thought you were the love of my life. I was faithful – even when I found out you were not – even though you said you were. So sad that you have to lie and sexup every nasty bitch that shows interest in you, to make yourself feel better…..i’d better fade away before i catch something bad from you. LifeTime is too short & I’m starting to dislike U.
What can you do? Be honest…it gets you thru doors you never knew could be Opened.
